Stars-Switchfoot

Maybe I've been the problem
Maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same
I've been thinking maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast
And maybe all my luck's washed down the drain

Chorus:
I've been thinking 'bout everyone
Everyone, you look so lonely
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
I see someone else
When I look at the stars, the stars I feel like myself

Stars looking at a planet watching entropy and pain
And maybe start to wonder how
The chaos in our lives could pass as sane
I've been thinking about the meaning of resistance
Of a world beyond my own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent
Began to look like home

Chorus:
I've been thinking 'bout everyone everyone, you look so empty
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
I see someone else
When I look at the stars, the stars I feel like myself

YOW!

Stars...stars

Everyone everyone you feel so lonely
Everyone, yeah, everyone you feel so empty

When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars I feel like myself
When I look at the stars, the stars
I see someone...

OW!

oh yeah. whoo! SOMEBODY STOP ME! (:

tsktsktsk.
this is damn boring can.
having f&n now. ):

talking about some lameness crap with rachel
FATTY ACIDS.
GLYCEROL.
LIPASE.
omg eh, save me.
such a madness.
roflmao.
i had a conversation with rozand just now.

oh man.
a lot of elephants have died
because of the big boulder.
(inside joke)
its damn mad laa.
ask me if you don't get this.
heh.

i'm gonna put the conversation here. (:
its damn retarded can not?
if someone reads it, they'll probably kill me.
roflmao. (:

i have oral later
oh man.
wish me the best eh.
i'm damn scared.
and its raining now.
does it mean anything? hmm.
nahh, just my mind telling me crap. heh.

alrights
i should probably stop now.
hahahahaha.
you know i love you. (:

long time not been online can
been studying and preparing for tests
and last week was fun. (:
had f&n practical.
keebs.
damn fun laa.

anyway, these few days have been CRAPPY!
yes, super duper crappy pls.
always lame comments
and at the end of the day,
i have such a massive loss of tears.

photograph by nickleback rocks my socks la.
its like, super duper. heh. ((:

Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red?
And what the hell is on Joey's head?

This is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneakin' out

This is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must've done it half a dozen times

I wonder if it's too late
Should I go back and try to graduate
Life's better now than it was back then
If I was them, I wouldn't let me in

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say, It's time to say it
Goodbye, Goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for

It's hard to say
It's time to say it
Goodbye, Goodbye

Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated us hangin' out
They say somebody went and burned it down

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we'd know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since thenI haven't seen her since
God knows when

I miss that town
I miss their faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it
If I could relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
Every time I do it makes me

whee. (:
seriously eh, i just love you.
really, i'm not joking.

i seem to be happier and happier as the days pass. (:
i wonder why
maybe its because this huge load has been lifted off me. (:
I'M A HAPPY KID!
is someone jealous that i'm happy? heh.

should i go for gladwin games tmr?
i don't feel like but,
i have alr promised mabel i'll be there
so guess i can't go back on my word huh?
hahahaha.

it's a happy day!
and i thank God for the weather!
it's a happy day!
and i'm livin' it for my Lord!
wheee!!! *skips ard.

my parents went shopping for kitchen appliances today
they came home with new stuff
they bought a new rice cooker, blender and an iron
oh, we have a new fridge too
cause our old one kind of died on us
it was so funny please
my dad said that our old fridge has been with us for eighteen years
like, that's an awfully long time
eighteen years old fridge. hmm.
imagine how old it is.

i heard the news about the body parts being found
i think its just gross please
i mean like finding diff parts of the body at diff areas?
that's pure madness.
and who would be so cruel to do that?
seriously, i don't know what these people are thinking
what's so fun about decapitating a person?
what's so fun about cutting up the person into parts and disposing them?
like, hello?
what does the murderer gain after cutting up the body and then disposing it away?
NOTHING.
just the thrill of it when cutting
and then after, that's it, it's over
and its just so sadistic
imagine blood all over the place
imagine seeing the bones of the person
and won't the murderer feel guilty?
doesn't the murderer feel anything at all?
why cut and throw?
i think that person just wants to play a game with the police
like hide and seek? pffft.
you know what i think?
i think its LAME.
that person is really, really sick
and its like, the murderer is a fillipino can
maid murder maid
what a joke.

well, i'm even happier now
i just..... yay! (:
okay, you wouldn't know what i'm refering to.
its fine, and don't bother to ask
i won't tell you. hahaha.

i can't wait for tmr. (:

tsk, while i'm happy, at the same time, someone is sad
like, why?
ahh, i shall not ponder about it now
its not the right time
cause, i'm happy, happy happy!
as happy as can be!
wheeee! (:

`i got my revenge.
and oh, revenge is sweet alright.

A PERSON BORN IN MARCH IS:
1. Attractive personality(hmm.)
2. Affectionate(HAHA.)
3. Shy and reserved(sometimes.)
4. Secretive(oh yeah..)
5. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic(honest?)
6. Loves peace and serenity(agreed)
7. Sensitive to others(am i?)
8. Loves to serve others(serve?!)
9. Not easily angered(so not true.)
10. Trustworthy(i guess.)
11. Appreciative and returns kindness(yes.)
12. Observant and assess others(hmm?)
13. Revengeful(totally agree.)
14. Loves to dream and fantasize(i certainly do.)
15. Loves travelling(uh-huh.)
16. Loves attention(hmm.)
17. Hasty decisions in choosing partners(correct.)
18. Loves home decors(REALLY.)
19. Musically talented(really?)
20. Loves special things(mmm hmm.)
21. Moody(agreed.)
-how true it is. hmm.

ONE MORE:
You are Mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be Sad or Happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for a person who is trustworthy.
-and once again, i agree with EVERYTHING.
*draws a line.

no matter what, i still love breathe easy by blue.
i mean, the words and all that
its just so captivating
just kind of wants you to break down and cry
-I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air-
stop it now. hmm.
*draws a line.

i'm reading a book
its called chill factor
and its pretty interesting
suspense novel, what its called.
i like suspense. (:
*draws a line.

I'M A HAPPY GIRL!
I JUST FOUND MY HAPPINESS!
yay, i love to be happy.
doesn't everyone? (:
*draws a red, thick line.

END OF STORY.

gosh, this hols have been boring.
as in, seriously eh.
getting sick on that monday.
i couldn't even go out tgt with my friends laa. ):
and now, i don't have the chance to
cause no one's free
i need to catch a movie
its been AGES.

anyway,
yesterday was my dad's birthday. (:
kelvin's birthday too.
we had a celebration in the night
like ard 11 plus.
so retarded can.
my brother was like so sleepy by the time we cut the cake
i gave daddy the present. (:
glad he liked it.

hmm.
i hope there's no holiday homework
cause i haven't been touching my books since.
ahh, i can't be bothered really.
no, who am i kidding?
i said that i have to take my studies damn seriously.
can't slack anymore
but, tsk, its the holidays
i should get a break before school starts
and once school starts, i'll go straight into studying everyday
i'll be like someone, going for 6 hr tuitions
GOSH.
imagine myself.
i will never be like that laa
that's just crazy.
yes, i know, CRAZY.
hahahahaha.

i need to go to stacy's house to get my books.
and i need to lose weight.
and i need to scream.
and i need to do so many things i can't even remember some.
TSK.

we painted our nails last night
it was so fun. (:
alternate colours.
mine was blue, shimmer, blue, shimmer, blue.
and for righty, it was purple, shimmer, purple, shimmer, purple.
so retarded can.
and now, lefty's black while righty has nothing on. (:
call it style. PFFFT.

`underpressure.

roz has been sick for the past 2 days. ):
sorry to the guitar girls
i couldn't be there for the performance
i was looking forward to it. ):
sorry sarah & rj. ):

i shall reply my tags here-
babytigger: thanks. (: i don't think that damn person will ever return laa. you're so fierce. *screams. I LOVE YOU. I MISS YOU. hurry, come back. ):
RaH: okay, i'll go your blog. LOL. sorry i pang seh you and rj laa. i can't help it when i get sick yeah? hahaha. anyway, see you soon. (:
janice: hey janice. (: i can't believe it. (you know what i mean) you're MAD. and that's good. hahaha. and the fierce one is my mei. (: i love her. haa.
huimin: hey pig. (: i'm glad you came. hahaha. thanks. monster is alright alr. she's up and about. (: see you ard.

i didn't go to church today
damn it laa.
i miss my eyecandy. ):
anyway, i was just slacking at home la.
watched the encore telecast of superstar. (there were no other shows to watch)
was pretty boring, i have to say.
headed out for lunch with my family
dad was kicking up a fuss
cause it was his birthday and we couldn't decide on where to go
he insisted on sushi but it was alr 3. (1 more hour till it closes)
so he was like getting petty and all that.
sigh, don't know why my mom just can't let him get what he wants.
it's his special day afterall. *sighs. WOMEN. =X
so we had lunch at some ulu place
and then we walked ard laa.
i felt oddly dressed. okay.
i felt OVER-dressed.
i thought we were going to town or something
turns out, we were in some neighbourhood area.
so throw face can. tsk.

so we were looking at phones
i was THIS close to getting the phone i want
when my dear little brother came into the picture
and then he asked the lady how much it costs
HE JUST HAD TO DO THAT.
cause when my mom heared that, she changed her mind!
and she was so into my brother and left me out!
my dad was trying to side with me
but my mom just wouldn't listen
she was practically giving a deaf ear to him!
i just sat there, trying not to explode in their faces
my blood was boiling.
I COULDN'T TAKE IT.
when we left, my mom talked to me
i just ignored her.
I WAS FURIOUS.
as we headed down the escalator, tears of anger came
i blinked them back, trying not to let my parents see them.
yeah, i know.
i was being so petty
anyway, when we headed home, i cooled down
i took a shower, wanting to wash away all the hatred i had for my brother at the same time.
my mom came to talk to me
again, the tears came.
this time, tears of disappointment and sadness.
i fought them back, not wanting to surrender to them
she explained to me why she did that
in my head, i was going, 'YEAH, RIGHT. YOU JUST LIKE HIM MORE THAN ME. YOU ADORE MY BROTHER. SO MUCH FOR BEING THE DAUGHTER WHO SCORED BETTER THAN HER BROTHER AND I DON'T GET A REWARD? YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME.'
i was just replying her in nods and 'mmm's.
i mean, what else is there to say to her?
i don't want a fight to come up just because of thes DUMB matter
anyway, after giving it much thought, i decided to forget it
i mean, I'M the big sister, i SHOULD be setting a GOOD example to my brother
shouldn't i?

anyway, it's all forgotten now
though i still feel like crying
tsk, i'm so weak now.
has this ever happened to you?
well, it ALWAYS seems to happen to me
and i just hate the after-effect of the situation
it kind of brings me down
and it makes me hate my family even more

results are out.
and i'm NOT happy with it
in fact, i'm disappointed with a capital D.
so, i've got to work extra hard for the finals
seriously, i have to.
NO MORE DISTRACTIONS.

`ARGH.

pictures uploaded.
teacher's day and presentation. (:
the four of us.
super duper.
go check it out. (:

cyberweek is finally over
gosh, it was so hard please
okay, maybe not
HAHA.

had teacher's day celebration yesterday
it was damn fun laa.
we had ACES day in the morning
and we were doing the national day dance laa
mrs teo was so active please
and she kept picking on the sec 3s
i mean like, we were doing loh.
HRMPH.
after that, we went back to class
took pictures. (:
headed off to the hall
we had the celebration there
all the performances were great
i enjoyed myself
the ex-PL lites returned to sing last year's theme song
and i was reminded again how much time left i had in school
2 years.
2 years may seem long, but to me, its short
cause this year passed by so quickly i didn't have time to reflect on my actions
when the ex-PL lites were singing the theme song,
i was reminded of the fond memories we had last year
last year, all of us were singing this theme song happily
we were so high, standing on the chairs and singing
the PL spirit was so great you could feel it
and again, i was reminded of the past
it was a grave feeling
but i had to put on a mask to hide it

but anyway, its over
why should i dwell on it?
i shouldn't even be talking about it.
hmm.

was talking to the BAD MAN just now
it was damn damn damn funny laa.
laughing till i almost died can
he was talking to lefty and righty
and they called him a bad man
i dunno what happened though
i was apparently, angry with him
LOL.
it was fun though
making him angry with me and all.

school again tmr. ):
i am so not looking forward to it
in the holiday mood now
and then i have to go back to school tmr
damn it.
i think i still have umcomplete homework

and we have performance on saturday
DAMN IT
seriously, i don't want it

i quarrelled with some childish freak
thank goodness she's gone
cause if she's here, the more i'll hate her
pffft.
a note to you:
REFLECT ON WHAT YOU HAVE JUST DONE
you have caused conflict among US
thanks a lot eh, seriously