Would you say that you'll always be the one to take my breath away?

hello hello i think today's such a boring day i can't believe i spent my whole day in front of the computer screen =/ i think i might go blind any second now. -.-

and i just came out of the shower but i still feel so hot and suffocated i feel like showering again. argh its the time of the month and OMG i just want to curl up and die. oh and there's depressing school tmr which is not very comforting because i just thought i could skip it but we've to be in school, its taking back report book day. =/ i'm preparing to get grounded cos i basically know how i've fared for this term.

i skipped school yesterday cos i was so sick of going to school. oh wait, have i mentioned that already? no? HMM i seriously don't remember but whatever. i wish i can skip school tmr i wanna skip school tmr. I.WANT.TO.SKIP.SCHOOL.TOMORROW. get the picture?

have ya'll ever wondered where all the things we lose go to? no? well then, read this book titled: A Place Called Here. it gives you all the answers and its a really really nice book. its so fiction but yeah whatever. i was reading the whole of yesterday and not to forget, taking pictures too HEH sorry i just love my camera(: and yeah it runs in the besties(: Rachel and i and Stacy can just compete to see who has the most pictures of ourselves in our computer. omg i bet i can win HAHAHA wtf

oh and if Samuel is reading this, i don't think i'll download your song for you because my com's like running low on memory (has to be the pictures) and yeah. wait till i clear my stuff on the com and then we'll see how it goes(: haha i love you Sammypoop. now stop being such egotistical asswipe <3




i like this picture i took of Charmaine i think its very nice HAHAHAHA like damn candid yet posed. okay what am i saying.

I know Goodbye means nothing at all

hello all, hello hello(: my msn is kinda screwed now and i'm lazy to restart my computer so i'm using ebuddy and its kinda laggy shaggy. blahhhh but nvm at least i still have msn. meow. today's entry is gonna be rather random, i've written down what i want to blog already so don't mind me(:

ya know i was listening to the radio last night and i counted the amount of times people say this when they dedicate a song. they go: 'its going out to my friends from (insert school here) and to all the listeners tuning in' at least 10 people said the same thing. well i really think thats kinda cliche, like its been used way too many times it doesn't actually mean anything anymore. like WHOOHOO all my friends? it isn't even a special feeling anymore, hearing that on the radio. i still remembered the last time i dedicated a song on the radio. INSANE! (:

and i need my tan back! i'm losing it my tan looks really ugly. omg Rene, swimming and tennis session soon! I NEED IT BAD, LIKE DAMN BAD(:

oh yeah and remember the picture in my last entry? IT WASN'T EVEN GLENDA CHONG -.- like, i knew that, dude. she's Suzanne Ho like HAHAHA and i removed the one with my face in it cos apparently people like Santine thinks its funny and keeps laughing at me. and also, i didn't react fast enough cos she managed to copy and paste like DAMMIT WHY MUST SHE USE IE!

i was at Sans bookshop at heartland with Rene today and we were browsing books. i got the newest book by Cecelia Ahern, i love her novels(: but thats not the point. i picked out a few books and read the summary of them. and most of the storylines of suspense novels are of people vanishing. now, i think thats just too overrated now. but the idea of people dissapearing is kinda cool and its quite of an interesting read. HEH

and i finally managed to use my NETS card today cos i finally put some money in my account and it felt GREAT being able to swipe my card and not worry about anything. and yes, i felt powerful cos when i purchased something, i just had to hand my card to the cashier then type in my PIN number ZOMGGZXZXZX hahaha but i can't spend too much cos i know how i can spend my money and it can be gone in *snap!*

CHECK OUT WONDER SHOWZEN EVERYBODAYEEEE! (: freaking hilarious (i'm trying to stay away from using profanities on my blog(:)

omg this is so random but i'm gonna talk about a ballpoint pen now. =D i think ballpoint pens bought from provision shops at 50cents are a great buy. they can write so smoothly and can last for years! its cheap, good and good. HAHAHAHA wtfreak.

i watched Click last night, abit backdated but yeah. its such a touching show i wanted to cry but yozx, i couldn't i couldn't HAHAHAHA and wouldn't it be nice if we all had a universal remote control? DOODE, dream on. okay i don't know what i'm saying anymore.

ALRIGHT I'M DONE WITH ALL I GOTTA SAY. just one more thing, i think if a guy sang me Look After You by The Fray, i'd marry him. THAT SONG IS SO NICE ITS LIKE THE SONG OF THE YEAR.

Now I'm heels over head

THANK GOD CHINESE O'S ARE FINALLY OVER(: i'm real glad(: the paper wasn't as difficult as i imagined and i managed to finish all papers on time. and i was really tired i slept, like literally slept, when i finished paper 1. paper 2 was kinda tricky but my answers managed to tally with my friends' so yeah, i need to pass! and i don't really like our invigilator he was quite rubbisheee. HAHAHA but nvm at least he wasn't strict like our N level one.

and i have classes for 2 whole weeks starting tmr. -grumbles- i don't even want to wear school uniform i just need a break from it. ohyeah and we're gonna be having 3 classes tmr its like a normal schooling day. gahhh. there's bio tmr. oh and speaking of bio, i need to inform the class to bring the Plan Reproduction notes. pffft sucks when the teacher can't find any of your classmates and so conveniently find you in the corridor.

i was singing Thunder during both papers i think the lyrics have now been part of my memory its been etched in there. i swear i could hear myself humming out loud in the exam hall la thank goodness no teacher caught me for acting retarded/attempting to cheat. well then enough of chinese, i'm glad its over. INTENSIVE MATH PLEASE

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sometimes i think i really need to take a break from this world. i mean, sure, life's great and all but there are SO MANY setbacks it just kinda brings me down. like friends, relationships, family. in every aspect, there'd always be some kind of trouble which makes the whole world seem like a sucky place to live in. sometimes i'm just not really in the mood to talk to anyone i just like to be on my own and what do they think? they think that i do not care and that i'm so not interested to listen to their stories. like YEAH sometimes i am like that but most of the time i just really like to be on my own and think of my own things.

and i don't really like to gossip ALTHOUGH I DO THAT HALF OF THE TIME. i believe in karma and its actually quite stupid to just talk bad about someone you don't even know. first impressions matter to me and that lets me draw out a picture, you know. like when i first meet someone, i immediately judge that person on what i see. if i don't like it, i'd gossip, diss, slander. if i like it, I ENVY. haha shit damn karma. i must make it a point to stop gossiping (its gonna be hard) and i'll do it

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right then, enough of sidetracking. i need to go to sleep, i didn't get a good rest last night thanks to my mom. she was snoring in my room. we care for the environment, we share our air conditioners. which is why i'm feeling very tired, i'm a light sleeper and the slightest noise would jerk me awake. sorry its not in much order so arrange them yourselves(:

anw i forgot to mention i saw Glenda Chong at Genki Sushi yesterday. take a look, its kinda blur and ignore my effed up face(: we were trying to snap a picture w/o arousing her suspicions, therefore i had to be in the picture. MUCH TO YOUR DISMAY hahahahaha





ALRIGHT, OUT.

I wanna make you mine
All the time
That's no lie
THAT'S NO LIE!

I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

HELLO ALL(: today was quite uhm, should i say, normal. uh yeah, normal. went to church for service and it was quite okay. we were down there bullying Jotham, poking him here and there it was hilarious la we were laughing during prayer HAHAHA and yeah, samuel was being oh-so-lame and retardo taking pictures of me and i looked like i was putting a finger up my nose. thank you for the gift, Ani Shmany! <3

had Sushi with my bro and dad. then we walked ard United Square and my dad so surprisingly brought us to Starbucks to have coffee. i tried the Banana Java Chip thing, it wasn't very nice i think i'll stick to Caramel Ice Blended/Frappucino instead(: then we went home. lunch wasn't very boring like i thought it would be cos i was supposed to go out with the group for lunch but my dad didn't want us to so YEAH. i had fun heh

and its Chinese O's tmr i cannot wait for it to be over. i was doing chinese past year papers and i think i should be fine tmr HEH shit. wo zhen de hen pa! blahhhhhh. but i'm sure we'll ALL do fine, yay i need to have faith and go through this. mmm hmm. let's do this, 5a2! <3

alright, i'm running out of time, my brother wants to use the computer and i feel like grabbing an ice cream and do some more revision. alrighty then, i'm outta here. oh and i was listening to A Lonely September just and i think i like it again(:

AND YOU DIDN'T MEAN TO LOVE ME BACK
BUT I KNOW YOU DID

Its about time I got a new pet HAHAHA

omg look at the time i said i was supposed to start on my chinese revision but obviously i've not much interest in doing so =/ i'm still kinda tired i feel like jumping into bed. blahhhhh. and where's my rice and fried egg! HAHAHA

my parents aren't home they left the house to my brother and i which explains why i'm using the computer(: mom's at a seminar, dad's at a friend's wedding. mom wants to head out to dinner, i don't mind i wanna get out of the house its so boring in here i keep wanting to sleep when i can actually get other things done.

speaking of other things, there are several things i need to complete within this holiday. here's a few i can remember. ya know you can't always blame my STM kay.
1) Get my dreadfully messy room cleaned up
2) Throw/give away clothes i don't wear/can't fit into
3) Go jogging/swimming twice a week
4) Hang out with the besties
5) Sleep early, wake up early, STUDY
6) Retail therapy(:

thank God for the holidays. oh and i like my pimped up Friendster and MySpace profile pages(: made them all by yours truly, thank you(: i think both the layouts are very contrasting cos one's dark and the other's real bright(: but yeah i like it loadsa! wahahaha

yeah and its gonna rain its real dark its gonna look like this:




omg i love this picture. sorry random(:

alright my brother wants to take over me so i'm outta here. its combined service tmr. i dread yet am looking forward to it(: imma take a picture with Ani Shmany tmr HAHAHA can't wait then.

till then, think of what kinda super powers you wanna have and share it with me(:
KAY BYE

Would you say that you'd always be the one?

I feel so tired and drained, chinese is definitely getting to me =/ i want to just curl up in bed and sleep until Monday comes i can't take it anymore. i can't wait for the chinese O's to be over i need a break, i need retail therapy(:

i had a wonderful chicken wing feast just now and i'm satisfied. my dad bought it from East Coast and i think i had 4 chicken wings in total HEH i just needed some food cos i was feeling rather hungry. now i need to drown myself in cups of water blahhhhh

i was out with Cassandra yesterday. we went to watch Pirates of The Caribbean cos i got free tickets from my mom's ex boss. it was such a nice show! oh, and i experienced the most suffering 3 hours of my entire life i had to hold my pee to prevent myself from wetting my seat. my bladder was so full i couldn't take it anymore so i just ran out to peeeeeeeee. i stepped on people's feet and pulled someone's ponytail while wrestling in the dark to get out of my row. we chose the best seat, centre row, center coloumn HAHAHA i had fun (well except for the pee part)

and today, Rae and i had Pizza Hut for lunch cos she had this craving for baked rice. we saw so many typical bitches from SR and this one gave us this 'i'm checking you out' look kinda thing like she wasn't happy with us or something. ah i could see from her face she doesn't like us but, what did we do? we merely walked in and sat down la. and throughout she kept glancing at us. Rae was unhappy and then we started making up ways in why she kept giving us that 'not happy with you' look. HAHAHA zomg hilariouswzxzwezxz

and i don't have to go so far to buy my white skinnies already. we were walking ard heartland and i came across this shop and saw white skinnies in there like YAY. but they only have it in size 25 like WHOOHOO as if i can fit. then we went to uh, This Fashion to try out dresses and we looked like some clowns we were laughing and laughing inside the changing room. i think dresses aren't so us(:

walked to White Tangerine to slack and the guy didn't allow outside food cos we were eating packet foods and i was drinking coffee. i was like 'oh, okay' then looked at the menu. i ordered Milo Dino which cost me 3.80 it was quite a waste of money. but it tasted quite fine, but 3.80?! omg how much do they earn. they sell fish and chips for 8bucks. SIAO.

she came over to my house and we watched tv. SHE FELL ASLEEP ON MY COUCH while watching Ellen hahahahaha and then she left cos she had church. blah blah i am so tired i have started blabbering. =/ =S =/ =S

alrighty then. chinese O's are just 2 days away. i'm scared and not prepared so what am i gonna do? ah, imma wake at 11 and watch tv, have lunch. then i'll start doing chinese papers the teachers gave us. i need to take this seriously, they're all pinning high hopes on us. pffft. wo bu xi huan hua yuuuuu =/

i shall get a move on i need to sleep or i'll wake up late tmr and all my plans to study will be disrupted. rawrhuahawteeheehee i'm surprised at myself planning to study for chinese(:

till then, own a watch for it helps you keep track of time =D




maybe something like this. BUY THIS FOR ME? (its from Fossil) i need to keep track of time.

PINK IS SEXY. (:

good morning. today was a nice day, yeah i think it was. HMM lets see now. we didn't do much in school today except for chinese and chinese. we went through our mock exam papers and it was so boring! we weren't even listening to the teachers who were speaking in the front. just talking among ourselves and comparing our leg lengths and laughing like some mad kids. i peeled the rubber label from the back of my shoe and it looks weird! HAWHAW but nvm(:

tmr's gonna be a shitty day we've got target review like HAHA as if i met any of my targets =/ i feel so fucked. and uhm, we've got area cleaning as well. have to clean our homerooms like how to? our homeroom's a kitchen man. and i'm sure it's gonna be a very boring day i can feel it. oh and and we've got another mock exam paper to complete.

and then friday, we've to go to school. sec1s to 3s dont have to come to school cos they've got meet the parents. and we have school until 10am and we're out. rachel and i are gonna have breakfast at mcdonalds then go out shopping afterwards. i'm gonna find my skinnies and suspenders. HAHA cannot wait. i wanna go to Golden Mile army market to shop(:

i keep having something to say but i keep forgetting =/ i have serious stm la somebody help me rmb. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

alright since i can't rmb what i wanted to say, i'm outta here. till then, drink ribena it gives you good health(:

TEENY LITTLE SUPER GUY! ZOMG HE'S MY HERO.

okay hello kids(: today was a fine day, the sun wasn't too hot everything was nice WAHAHA nicole didn't come school early morning. she felt sick, had a fever. and then we just went through our mock papers in the hall like zomg i failed. what a contradiction la i passed mid years, failed mock paper. whats going on? HAHAHA. nvm we've got more mock papers before the exam which is 7 days from now.

and then we had English oral. i thought i was gonna get Mrs Jacob for oral cos we were counting our examiners. but i got KEL in the end it was quite disastrous cos she wasn't even paying attention to me! and she asked me a question which was quite stupid cos i had alr mentioned that part in the picture. tsk obviously not listening to me. and i stumbled (as usual) but i think it was fine la. i managed to engage her in conversation.

oh yeah i need to say that Santine is MAD. as in like M.A.D, MAD. i saw her 3 times today and each time she had such a huge reaction. i think she likes the floor, she kept lying on it. and i think her vocal chords are damn pro la they can withstand all her screaming, she does it everyday. tsktsk Beanie, stop screaming and i still believe that you'd poison my food if i wanted some.

okay i'm real sleepy and i think i should go take a nap. i feel like eating Chicken Rice now. its comfort food. and i'm fat, thanks to stupid monthly periods. arghhhhhhh.

OUT.

OMG AND I FORGOT TO SAY!

i had this damn close encounter with death. while walking away from RELC buidling heading to Forum, i was tryna help Rachel flag a cab. so we were at this stretch of road and i saw a cab. i was on the pavement. and the pavement had white lines indicating that vehicles aren't supposed to drive on it. so i guess i took that for granted and just walked out cos i saw a cab turning out from some apartment. and then i heard Rachel scream: 'ROZAND!' and i stopped and turned and saw this motorbike just screech and zoom past me. it was like inches away from my body la.

i thought i felt okay but after awhile i could've sworn my hands were shaking. HAHAHA now i'll never take white road lines for granted and make sure to look right and left and right again before i cross the road HEH. kay thats all.

kay bye.

I'd rather scream my lungs out than sing you a song.

HELLO(: i'm real tired and bored i feel like sleepinggggggg. argh tmr's monday and we're gonna be having english oral and i'm kinda worried although i can converse pretty okay in English as compared to chinese. lets just hope that the conversation topic would be something i can relate to and not something that is totally political or whatsoever. and i hope that the picture given would be something relatively easy to describe so i wouldn't have to worry so much(:

alright, yesterday's literature talk was somewhat boring! Nicole didn't come in the end cos she was at some meeting. and uh, before the talk, we (Samantha, Rebekah, Rae and I) met at town and headed to Orchard Towers for lunch. i missed the fishball noodles real bad! and then we headed to Forum, TRU! and we saw Widzuan omg Widzuan still wants me to sweep his stupid tween zone. =/ and Rachel saw her AHHEM wahahaha. and then i bought PEZ refill and we hung ard TRU before heading to RELC. met Rene there and we were on our way we kinda got lost but it was fine cos we managed to find our way there thankfully.

and i must say, the speaker was pffft. i was quite alert initially, taking down notes and paying attention to what he was saying and then suddenly, after one hour my attention span began to decrease and i was no longer interested. and so i started doodling and twirling my hair. and when it came to the Q&A session, it was the most entertaining of the whole thing. people were asking stupid questions making us laugh. and XiuWen went up to ask and he only gave one sentence as reply. its quite unfair cos other people got on whole paragraph when they asked like one stupid no-brainer question. i think he doesn't know how to answer the question XiuWen shot him. lalala

then Rene and i went to Forum Mac for a quick bite before i headed off to Newton to meet my family. and yeah, we went to this country club at Choa Chu Kang. i can't rmb the name of it but yeah the food there was nice! esp the mushroom one it tasted like horfun wahahaha. but the whole event thing was in chinese and it was quite annoying cos every minute you have this man/woman standing on stage speaking in chinese. i couldn't even eat in peace. the food was nice la thats all i have to say(:

and today church was fine. sammypoop ain't coming for 11.30 service anymore he's going for 9.30 cos of tuition his mother signed him up for. and so yeah. then we went shopping at Plaza after church and i bought stuff. HEH. i bought nice undies and 3 tops(: i love my mom (and whenever there's a sale!) yeppers. and then we did some grocery shopping and went home after that.

I WANT A NEW PAIR OF HAVAIANAS! and i want another pair of skinny jeans in a nice colour like bleached/dark blue! and i also want suspenders! in various colours eg, black/red/lime green. hahaha i need to seriously get a job zomg everyone's getting jobs i feel pressured to get one too. =/ sigh money money money! when will there ever be enough?

alrighty then before i go, PICTURES!


you like me cos i drink chinese tea in a wine glass


first attempt tryna capture while walking: SUCCESS.


toilet of RELC

ONE HAPPY CHAPPY FAMILY. (:

I'd rather waste my time with you.

TODAY WAS SCREWED UP we got back our math paper and everything was just so wrong =/ i flunked it terribly, everyone did actually. but it felt like shit cos every page had crosses, and huge ones at that! it was so depressing but we soon got over it by having chicken rice! like zomg, chicken rice is so satisfying(: oh and we got back English and i scored a B4 which is damn weak. i'm glad for compo though cos i scored like 21 for compo HAHA zomg thats quite cool. HMMMMM.

i just came home from dinner! and uh, we had Thai Express. softshell crab curry yo shaitzxzx! damn nice la i enjoyed my dinner unlike a certain someone who had home cooked food WAHAHAHA. okay la, not so mean. oh and i had bubble tea! my brother and i were looking for PKL people on the streets just naming this and that person. yeah like whatever -rolls eyes-

and i can't wait for tmr yozxzx. we're gonna go TRU! (: been quite awhile since i last went there and yeah gonne buy PEZ refill! heh. oh yeah and we're gonna go Orchard Towers for lunch. gonna relive the memories like its been such a long time ago! sigh we should just let go la huh, Rachel? but i wanna have the fishball noodles for lunch cos i love love it! yep, gonna meet Nicole and uh, Rachel might be going to play pool with Rebekah so there, i'm not going.

ANYONE KNOW HOW TO GO TO RELC!!!! =/ i'm afraid we might get lost. rarrrrrrhhh.

alrighty alrighty. i like the song Blue and Yellow by The Used its sexy yo. -laughs- kay kay, i'm just excited for tmr la kay. minah ketot! WAHAHAHAHAHA. kay bye.

YES BLOGGER LAYOUT IS FREAKING FINALLY BACK TO NORMAL! =D okay.





Sunday morning, time to say goodbye but I'll be home real soon.

Good evening/night!(: today was niceeeee. well not really la but yeah. the day was shorter yet longer as compared to other days. and yeah we had chinese mock exam today. it was real short although it lasted 2 hours. =/ and i was really tired! when laoshi was in class talking to us, i was down there dozing off la i wanted to put my head on the table and sleeeeeeeeep! blahhhhh

and we had chapel today. Samantha was asking me to teach her the Barney song and i was trying my best but she couldn't catch whatever i was saying HAHA samantha slow learner, i think she's a visual learner. so yeah. today passed real slow! nicole and i were wishing for time to move faster and we kept staring at the clock but only to find that it passed like 1 minute only. it was so retarded when the school bell rang, both of us screamed 'YES!' stood up and walked out of class. you should have seen us, it was so sudden i think people got scared HAHAHA.

then i went to Rachel's house to have maggi meeeeee. had nice nice (flat) coke and then we slacked in her room for awhile. didn't do much la just surfed the net and tried logging in to people's accounts but it was difficult to try and figure out their passwords so we just gave that up. hahahaha we were trying lame words la but too bad we couldn't go in. pffft. nvm i'll soon master the art of hacking rawrhuahawteeheehee! =DD

OMG NICOLE AND I ARE OFFICIALLY BOYS LIKE GIRLS FANS! haha we kept singing Hero Heroine today in ching chong chinese class and we listened to it and sang to it zomg i think we can form a karoke club la siala bapo! wahahaha what am i saying i dunno? HMMM. i'm a little bit high now and now i'm sending her Thunder by them its the bomb too! YOUR VOICE WAS THE SOUNDTRACK OF MY SUMMER! ahhhhhh shit, even Rene's addicted! (:

alright, i'm outta here! and this song Nicole sent is nice! I'd Rather by Luther Vandross. whoamygosh, so nice!

I'D RATHER HAVE THE ONE WHO HOLDS MY HEART.

I feel like a newborn child, everytime I see you smile.

TODAY WAS SLACK DAY YET AGAIN(: but i'm not complaining its real fun! hahaha we were slacking like so much it was crazy i don't understand why we have to come to school i don't do anything at all in class. even though laoshi's in class we don't really do work, we just pretend. and yeah. Nicole and i are seriously chinese losers. we read out loud in class and some words we don't know, we'd skip wahahaha omg Nicole, we are so cool. i like reading chinese in class. WEI WO SHI CHI JIA YING. rawrhuahawteeheehee!

okay i'll end right about soon. i just need to uhm, stop being so emo. i feel like shit inside right now. its because of YOU la you stinking bastard. and yeah i know maybe you didn't do anything wrong to me but i just feel damn cheated and used. like hello, just cos you two broke up then you come and talk to me. i'm not your spare okay, dude. and in the first place, why didn't you freaking tell me that you've got someone? keep me in the dark, OH JUST DO THAT. but i don't see the need in getting angry, i'm just upset. and you act like as if nothing happened. still telling me the same old shit you used to tell me like, I'M NOT INTERESTED.

okay thats all i gotta say(: so yeah. we're having mock exam tmr SIGHHHHHH nvm i'm sure we'll make it through! kay balls. i'm thankful for friends like SAMMYPOOP and Jerome(: like damn straight. they just made my day. and whats more, tmr's the 18! HAHA yeah sammypoop, you know what i'm referring to. blahhhhhhhhh. its samantha's birthday tmr! omg no present blahhhhhh okay i'm out!

well, this weekend has definitely been a hectic week we were at my grand uncle's wake on friday and early saturday morning. friday was alright, i went out with the besties and friggin bought my black skinnies! and i bought 2 more shirts. one Ibanez, the other The Used! (: i'm glad, i bought 3 things like i said i did(: hahaha. and we had fun, really though we didn't take any pictures. its all in stacy's cam but it isn't really nice ones.

and we went to my grand uncle's wake after that. my grand uncle looked like a wax figurine in his coffin. i was afraid he's open his eyes when i looked at him or something. nicholas had that feeling too! like omgosh. there were so many flies flying ard after the heavy rain and i was so freaked la i kept running ard. some people we didn't know came to his wake too. and we had a service, singing songs and having a person preach too. then we went home really late. oh, look what we did during his wake.



yeah we took pictures(:



and this was what nicholas was wearing. HAWHAW.

and we also took more pictures but i shan't put them up la kay. i'm kinda lazy HAHAHA. and yeah. the next morning, we woke up real early! and yeah, it was cremation day. charmaine and i were dreading it but we couldn't help it. we went for service in the morning then when they closed the coffin, we had to walk after the van which drove out and i was friggin crying already. and then, we reached the crematorium and had service there.

and the time came to pay respects. my aunt was crying so much it made charmain cry and then made me cry. we had to put flowers on his coffin and omg that felt shitty i was cryinggggg. and then we went to the viewing hall and watched the coffin being burnt. AND OMG I CRIED LIKE SHIT. and yeah, we watched the coffin roll towards the incineration doors and once it reached, my aunt was crying so hard it made me cry harder until i was gasping so loudly OMGZXZX the feeling was shitty i swear.

and then i was OVER. so the cousins went out to vivo to catch a movie i felt like catching a comedy so we did. BLADES OF GLORY IS FUCKING HILARIOUS. haha like omg i laughed like shit! charmaine was laughing like some mad kid too omg worth my money like seriously! (: and yeah we were at vivo snapping tons of pictures, here are some.























yep, thats about it. and today, just the usual. HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY! (: hahaha. alright, outta here yo. freaking intensive chinese for 2 freaking weeks. OMG KEEL ME! =/

i just lost my grand uncle. my aunt called 5 minutes ago to tell us the depressing news. although we aren't that close, we still cared for him. we used to live under the same roof when i was still studying in the primary school and i'd remember him being immobile, using his hands to take him ard the house. he was a nice man, always talking to us. and now, in a matter of 7-8 years? he's gone, just like that. he never remembered us when we went to visit him in the hospital but he's always look at us with such yearning eyes but now we'll never get to see that again. but it doesn't matter because i know that there's a much better place for him to go to and not suffer anymore here in this cold and unfeeling world.

well, let's not talk about such a depressing matter already i don't want this to affect my mood because tmr's friday although i can't help but feel abit shitty. oh yeah, chinese oral was alright! like, not what i'd expect cos it was actually really fine. i stuttered and stumbled but i managed to catch myself and finish reading the passage even though i was shaking like i was on drugs. and the conversation was fine too. I WAS FREAKING SPEAKING IN SIMPLE CHINESE. and i used english too HOW COOL but nvm. she told me to pin up my hair during the O level oral and i think i'll do just that. my hair is abit messy and unkempt but yeah, MESSY HAIR IS SEXY. zomgxzxzx.

and uhm, we're going out tmr to shop. i need to shop my sorrows away like damn straight. i plan to buy at least 3 things to add to my wardrobe i seriously need a wardrobe revamp! pffft. can't wait for 9am tmr like seriously! my paper lasts only 1 hour and we'll be as free as birds, flying in the wind. HAHA yeah right, there's hardly any wind nowadays the weather is freaking damn hot la thanks to people like Santine who switches on her air conditioner every other day when she feels its hot but she can actually just switch on her fan to cool herself down. we should all go to Santine's house and remove her air conditioner I HAVE TO WALK IN THE SCORCHING SUN EVERYDAY BECAUSE OF PEOPLE LIKE HER. i hate global warming, the heat's getting to me. =/

alright, its 10.30 i need to get out of here. well then, all the best for my MCQ paper tmr yozxzx. yay freedom at last! phooo!

ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT THE DRUGS DON'T WORK ANYMORE.

HELLO. f&n paper today was alright-o i hope i pass(: but about the additives one, lotsa people didn't expect that to come out so we all wrote real short short paragraphs HAHA damn. and now, i have about 20 minutes to prepare, i have to be back in school i have chinese oral later on. =/ omgzxz i'm damn scared la okay. we're having goh hui ching as our examiner. pffft. but nvm i'm not the only one worrying(:

okay this is gonna be short so yeah. i'll be back later to blog. so i'm outta here? haha yeah have to prepare for school and look at the weather! its like scorching hot! =/ blahhhh.

OMGZXZX this stupid randy guy keeps talking to me on msn whats up with that weirdo anyway? nvm i'll just go block him rawrhuahawteeheehee! kay byebye.

I'M JADED NOW, WHATEVER THAT MEANS.

Oh, hello(: today was screwed up stupid papers were difficult especially math. I hate math like eroifgkdjvnhhg la nothing can describe it. OMG NICOLE, HURRY CRASH COURSE AT CHEC! Okay, other than that I think today was alright. Oh yeah and chemistry was pffft! I totally forgot about the Trachea thingamajig so I left the whole question blank. SO PREPARED TO FAIL. =/

But who gives a duxj, everyone is gonna fail too. Blahhhhh. Its f&n tmr, a better subject I hope. And I hope and pray that we don’t have Chinese oral tmr cos I’m seriously not prepared(: uhm, and also I wanna go home and sleep. Friday’s the last day of our papers and its only MCQ and I don’t think we have to study for MCQ? Hahaha and after MCQ, we can go home and party because it’s the end of mid years and our misery(: then we’re going to Peninsula! I cannot wait, I cannot wait! =DD

Okay I have nothing much to say, really. I realize I’ve been blogging everyday HAHA which I’m not suppose to cos I need to be actually studying but now I’m in the mood to sleep. The weather’s cold and perfect for a nap(: blahhhh.

And I’m so angry with you la, seriously. You’re just like every other guy, such a bastard. You like the attention, don’t you? I mean you’ve already found your happiness and didn’t even tell me like hello, do you seriously treat me as your friend? And whats this, you’re msging me? HAHA please, just get on with your life you don’t even fucking need me in it. Argh.

On a lighter note, I can’t wait for Friday. Oh I’ve said that already? HAHA sorry but I really can’t wait for Friday(: oh yeah, I came across this picture, I think its really nice.

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HAHAHAHAHA GOTCHA! =D omg I love tinypics.com I think it’s a coolio website (although there’s porn I swear there’s porn in it) hahahaha and this picture is just sexy.

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

I FREAKING LOVE SECONDHAND SERENADE.

YES! MY EFFORTS PAID OFF I FOUND STINKY THE STINKWEED! there we go, our library auntie looks like this I SWEAR. PL lites go see and compare ahahahaha sorraye. kay outta here my mom's nagging at me to study(:

Hello world(: I think today was a nice day HAHA we slacked a lot in the library before our chemistry paper today and we kept laughing cos Samantha was making us laugh like some mad kids. We were also laughing at Stinky (ie; library aunty) cos she looked a lot like Stinky from Sesame Street. I can’t seem to find a picture of Stinky on the internet =/ I feel so sad I thought I could show you guys how she looks like. Blah but nvm and I we had Wine Gums today in the library. It was crazy we were in no mood to study.

Chemistry was alright, I think. Just that uhm, I didn’t know how to do some of the questions and I freakingly spotted the iron ore thingy but didn’t study and it came out. How stupid but I only spotted it in the last minute so heck care la. Everyone’s prepared to fail since it’s the mid years.

Went to Rachel’s house after our paper. I had roti prata for lunch and then we were in her room slacking, using the computer. Uhm and then we camera whored omg it was DAMN FUNNY ESPECIALLY THE MUTIPLE SHOTS ONE. You have to see it but Rachel’s not at her computer now I think she’s busy studying. I’m not even studying la like alhgkheriyajkhgfdrqwu CRAZY SHIATE. Bio and math paper 2 tmr. OH DAWMN.

Okay nvm, I so want to sleep already but I think I should at least browse my bio for awhile then head into bed. I’M SO SLEEPY ALTHOUGH I HAD A 2 HOUR NAP. My mom slept in my room last night and she kept snoring, waking me up. So I didn’t have a very nice sleep. But its okay, its nothing new. Hahahaha

I wanna eat ice cream so I’m gonna go and grab some and maybe drink coke shit I need coke. I’m so damn addicted(: kay then, I’m outta here.

THEY SAY LOVE, IT IS A FLOWER.

Its a love crime to me.

BLOGGER IS SO SCREWED, WHY IS THAT SO? rawr.

well, today was alright. we had english paper 2 and Geography today. and uh, english paper 2 was manageable, i hope? ha and also, Geography was easy. yeah as if i'm such a geog pro but yeah. environmental management came out and i still can rmb the presentations we had in class a few weeks ago so i picked that although i didn't focus on that when i studied for geog.

we're having chemistry tmr and i bet mole concept is gonna be tested. my mole concept is totally out of grasp la i can't seem to understand that topic but it doesn't really matter i guess. i don't like mole concept that much so i don't see its importance at all(:

went OMS after our papers to have maggi meeeeeeee(: i like OMS yeah i know i've said this plenty times but yeah man. so we were sitting there for 1 hour, not surprising, gossiping about this and that and everything under the sun! like how long have we not done that already pls. and we kept going on and on and on it was retarded. i made the first move to leave or i swear we'd still be there talking and talking like chattering uhm, parrots? HAHAHAHA WHATEVER.

rachel, rene and i are Westlife lovers i think Westlife rocks. sorraye i know it sounds abit backdated but WESTLIFE IS THE BOMB YOZXZX. (: i love I CRY, IF YOUR HEART'S NOT IN IT, WHY DO I LOVE YOU, I WANNA GROW OLD WITH YOU and like basically all the songs la. =D *meltsmelts. oh man now i feel all emo nemo. blahhhhh. rachel and i? yeah, total emo shaitzxzx although she has more reason to be emo and i don't. phoo!

i can't wait for Friday. i think rachel and i are going to Peninsula Plaza to do some shopping(: i'm gonna get my black skinnies. and uhm, she's gonna call her/our BODYGUARD along wahahahaha i don't know. i want cassandra to go but she doesn't like to go out in odd numbers. i wonder who else to call. *ponders. I DUNNO! =S

i slept only 3 hours last night but quite surprisingly, i was awake for the whole of today up till now! i didn't even feel like sleeping in the exam hall just now. i was really alert. I THINK ITS THE ESSENCE OF CHICKEN. rawrhawhuateeheehee. yeah maybe. omg i need to go and sleep la and its so hot i'm melting! =/ yeah like seriously i think i had heat rash this morning and last night which was why i couldn't sleep. pffft hope it doesn't happen again tonight.

well then i think thats all i gotta say. damn it time to go into emo mode! HAHAHA yeah as if i can really do that. kay la kay la. i like sundays, i like to see Jill Mabel and Samuel(: hahaha i sound retarded, thank you. its the heat, i swear. OUT. <3

So much to say but where do i start?

i think there's something wrong with blogger, the page layout of my blogger is abit screwed. but nevermind, i'm not in much mood to blog anyway.

i woke up running to the toilet to vomit. it was quite sick cos i just vomited out liquid stuff and it didn't smell of acid. and i vomited quite a number of times la my stomach was so pain i wanted to die. so my mom made me eat porridge and meds and i went back to bed again. i was running a fever of 38.5 degrees it was freezing i swear. but when i woke my fever and stomach pain was gone. my mom said i had gastric flu or something like that.

omg now i feel like vomiting again. =/ ah shit. i feel queasy arghhhh! i was supposed to study today but look what i'm doing now(: haha whatever.

alright alright, i think i need to standby in the toilet just in case i hurl my lunch out. omg omg omg please don't make me vomit. i hate the choking feeling. =/

Out!

i totally screwed for math and socials =/ how great huh. math paper was really difficult everyone was talking about how retarded it was and how many blanks we left on the paper. everyone lost about 20plus marks cos we left the questions blank. omg 20marks is a lot and the paper is upon 80 la how shittty is that. argh i want to die i want to dieeeeeeee.

i just hope that paper 2 wouldn't be so difficult so i can pull up my marks. the total mark is 100 so if i can pass then i think i'll be happy. omg math sucks shit balls. and socials was pure rubbish la okay. i spotted the right chapter but only at the last minute i managed to browse through at the very last minute but duh, when i went in everything just flew out and diffused into the condenser maybe. omg and it really came out! !@#$%%^&*() i was so angry at myself. at least i studied the other chapter. just that uhm, maybe what i wrote was all rubbish. like 2 foolscaps of pure rubbish that can be used to wipe my ass after i shit. blahhhhhh

on a lighter note, ITS FRIDAY(: yeah thank goodness its Friday but you know what. i'm seriously not looking forward to sunday cos i'll be seeing that green pickle's face. and that just sucks because i know she's gonna lecture for sure. DEAF EAR. yeah balls. whats that chinese idiom? uh, zuang long zuo ya. WAHAHAHA zomg speaking about chinese, i totally crapped for chinese compo and paper 2! i shall not say more(:

well, figured its been a long time since i last did this so:




fucken hot emo boy! i feel so secondary1 kid but ZOMG the hair is just sexy. hahaha yeah balls. HMM so i think i should go now. i'm really sleepy i think i'll just go catch about 1975846834 winks before my parents come home and we head out to dinner(: my brother ain't coming along he went out with his stupid smokerzxzx friends.



this was then



this is now.

your skin's a lot like plastic
some kind of bad disguise
transfusing blood for paper
so sweet, you're drawing flies

well, mid years aren't that bad(: i haven't been studying that hard, actually. but i'm having math paper 1 and socials tmr =/ which is shit because both are my weakest subjects. i mean, if you don't count chinese, that is(: blahhh. chinese paper 2 today was just rubbish la i hated it. but its alright because everyone's just saying that its the mid years. but it doesn't make a damned difference cos our chinese O's come in 24 days time.

okay, i'm just gonna make this short and sweet. uh, I HATE RAINY DAYS WITH LIGHTNING AND THUNDER. like seriously. when i was doing my paper today it suddenly poured. thank goodness we were in an enclosed air conditioned room or i would have died halfway writing. the thunder was super duper mega hyper loud and scary it actually shook the whole room. and there was this bright flash of lightning and i swear i heard the whole school screaming. i almost poked myself with the pen i was holding la HAHAHA whatever. *rolls eyes.

HMM i created a new blog(: its this combined 3Rs blog yo shaitzxzx. and i love the blogskin. HEH blogskin of the day la kay. andand i think the blog's done beautifully. WAHAHAHA i'm just indirectly giving all the credit to myself. =X i should slap myself. i'm feeling damn high right now. exam stress? MY ASS. hahahahaha.

i can't wait for next friday to come. its my last paper and we can go out and partaye! well not for long cos 28th may would be here in a jiffy and we'd all be sweating seashells sitting for our chinese O level paper. but who cares for now. i'm just really worried for the rest of my subjects. i don't wanna care about chinese, i'm not gonna study it in future anywayssssss.

i like to browse MySpace(: i think i'll just quit Friendster from now. wahahaha. lotsa people use MySpace. oh yeah and uhm, MySpace has this HUGE amount of ___ people(: like dammit yo. Stacy and i loveeeeeee ___ people! and GAB thank you.(:

i've created The Emo Theory(: so now, we can all hang out as a whole gang and start crying oceans and oceans of mineral water. and then we can fill up empty bottles with our tears and sell it for $2.90 and our brand will be 'EMO GLANDS.' eeee that sounds gross. like imagine, 'HEY JULIA, WANNA GO 7-11 AND GRAB A BOTTLE OF EMO GLANDS?' ewwww! hahaha omg i'm mad, talking to myself.

alright i love my grandma she's preparing dinner for us all and i'll have to study later on after dinner or i swear my dad will start being all girly and talk talk talk till my ears burst. HMM.

i was having a conversation with Danial<3 just now. actually i'm still talking to him and omg, danial = good boy. he's like good-er than me. and and, HAHA, here's the proof:

:l Danial says:
lol OK DANIAL IS GOOD-ER THAN ROZAND b
:l Danial says:
BUT ROZAND HAVE TO TRY HER BEST TO BE GOOD-ER THAN DANIAL

there we go(: hahahaha. oh and i love love love MARS! its the bomb. oh man now i wanna go to Far East to buy Fried Mars Bars. oh dang.

SOMETIMES YOU GET IT, SOMETIMES YOU DON'T
BUT MOST OF THE TIME,
YOU DON'T.